A friend of mine,he was one of my best friends, he can be so insightful and have so much intelligence, understanding, wisdom for someone so young, but beside all that, he has his world, which is a fantasy so intrigate and so essential to him and his life that he can't truly see anything around him, he uses it to protect himself from things he doesn't want to see, but in the end it is his undoing because he also cannot see what he needs to see. I've written this now because I have finally stopped balancing on the edges of his two worlds. The real world, where he is one of my best friends and that's all, where we can talk sense and have a laugh and then his fantasy where he's built me up to be his perfect girl, where nothing can stop him reaching for a future where we are together, where we go on picnics and ride into the sunset, nothing will make him realise it won't happen, because he doesn't want to listen and he has refused to listen every time I said no. So I can no longer walk the path between his two worlds, as melodramatic as that sounds, it is crushing me, making me feel so awful, but he tries to drag me over to his fantasy world and I can't go there, no matter how many guilt trips, cries, how much pain and sadness he tells me his is going through, I can't be his perfect girl, if he won't listen to 'no' which he isn't, I am going to have to force us to go our separate ways. So I guess this is my goodbye, thank you for all the smiles and laughs, but there are no longer enough for either of us to keep going on.