can’t quite tell you
he’s no good at advice
we stopped talking weeks ago
you’re too busy for me
not big enough to bother her
or small enough to laugh it off
not a problem to solve now
but waiting till the morning
doesn’t feel right
need to get it off my chest
but no one’s quite the best
sick inside heart beating fast
no solution
sick inside.
“You’re cute”
No, I’m not a puppy.
“You’re cute”
No, I’m not a baby.
“You’re cute”
No, I’m not a teddy.
“You’re sweet”
Do I look like chocolate cake?
“I’m funny”
Yes, with wicked a sense of humour.
“I’m kind”
Yes, thoughtful doesn’t make me sweet.
I'm sexy, bright and beautiful.
Yes, I'm all those things.
A guy being a ‘gentleman’ and a girl a ‘lady’
are things that have always struck me as an inequality
little ‘rules’ like pulling out chairs
are things for which I just don’t care
and usually I’d protest
If told I should walk on the inside
away from the road
because they need to keep me safe
but somehow with you, it’s okay
being ‘sweet’ and ‘cute’
aren’t words I want describing me
I’ve never aspired to be those things
I’m not a toy, a baby or a pet
something you’d do well to not forget
but somehow I’m sure when you say
‘you&rs
What you'll smell like at eighty... by merlfoxFell, literature
Literature
What you'll smell like at eighty...
I wonder what you’ll smell like at eighty. Skin sagging, discolored, eyes clouded, varicose vains, limbs arthritic but still wrapping around me. I never want to sleep in separate beds. Will our room be tidy? Or like mine? Our house a cross section of what’s yours and what’s mine? Or just, ours?
I really don’t like your arrogance or some of your opinions, but I know you’ll never change. I’m not so keen on your point of view, when we disagree. But with you, I’ll always try to find a middle ground where we can just be, peacefully.
You click your nails on hard surfaces, you do it when we’re waitin
AdamannoyedYOURfaultyourFAULT
No! No evidence, catastropizing,jumping to conclusions. self hating. Councellor said NO!
Must’vesaidsomethingwrongDONEsomethingwrongMust’vemust’vemust’ve done. Evidence?notspeaking. Couldbetired?NO. your fault. Definitely.
Make a case. EVIDENCE?! Fact or OPINION? I DON’T KNOW…
notspeaking.notLooking. HEWALKEDPAST…nothing.YOU DID TOO,(not a social call!)
DOESN’THEWANTTOTALKTOME? HEDOESN’TWANTTOTALKTOME! What did I do?
OHMYGODWHATDIDIDO? WHATDIDIDO? WHAT? WHAT. WHAT. WHAT… did I do?
What did I do?
I’MSORRY!PLEASE!... What did I
shutuphateyougahannoyedhappy:Overthink by merlfoxFell, literature
Literature
shutuphateyougahannoyedhappy:Overthink
shut up thoughts
would you, mind?
If you can’t say anything nice
don’t…
no one taught you that?
inside voice
get out my head
stop thinking faster
I can’t shoot you down
anticipate anger you can’t predict
plan strategies: chose, myself or you
for a quiet life
you oblivious to the precarious card castle I build
and wait to fall ,sure up the foundations
so something’s left when you’re done
understanding why you do this
doesn’t make it easier
I know, appreciate, empathise
but on this one way street
no progress can be made
constricting coping mechanisms
to avoid disapproval
it may be infrequent
but it stands out in my mind
shaping everything
I can talk but it’s not as entertaining
as when I’m singing
No one can take me on when I’ve got that stage
Adrenaline rush with pumping blood, my hands are shaking and I can’t look down
Just before I step out under the lights
They’re blinding me, but even without sight, I’m most alive
The voice in my head is screaming, but I can match it
I can blast it, push it up a notch
You don’t want to take me on
I don’t need words when I can feel
Any noise will overpower
You can’t beat me, there’s no competition
When I’m not trying to win
So unique I feel invincible